"I told you to be patient
I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced
I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"
I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines"

zero

there was nothing.

nothing else to say.

nothing else to feel.

nothing else to see.

we have nothing.

but at the same time there was everything.

everything i didnt want to say.

everything i didnt want to feel for you.

everything i didnt want to see.

overdue

apparently i forgot i even had a blog.

i never post anymore. school is taking over my life one short film, poster design, and sketch at time. i cant wait until "reading week" so i can finally get some solid sleep* in.

speaking of sleep*, my birthday is next weekend and i am closing in on two decades of life. yes twenty. isn't that awful. id rather stay young forever. but i guess twenty isn't that old. but twenty is almost 25, which is almost 30, then next thing you know im 40 with two kids and an alcoholic husband with a beer gut. hopefully that doesn't happen and adam brody** finds me somehow.

*sleep=drinks + lack of sleep

**or any other guy that fits my "interests" for that matter

in other news,

i came across this website, SHOP W.A.S

this girl has amazing talent. man i gotta get back into D.I.Y. the cross necklace is amazing and im still debating whether or not to shell out 50 dollars of my "hard" earned retail job cash.

yep, its beautiful.

im expecting to win the lottery soon, even though i dont buy tickets, which i guess is essential in winning.

where do i get seeds for a money tree? reply back please.

im serious.

BANKZZZZ

tumbling

[10/01/10 11:28:28 PM] LAUREN : i posted cupcakes on tumblr

[10/01/10 11:28:33 PM] Shantel : oh i will look!

[10/01/10 11:28:36 PM] LAUREN : you should probably check that out before you peace

[10/01/10 11:29:00 PM] Shantel : awwwwwh yeeeeeeeeah!

[10/01/10 11:29:07 PM] Shantel : instant re-blog!

[10/01/10 11:29:15 PM] LAUREN : YESSSS

[10/01/10 11:29:15 PM] Shantel : (fuck, just boosted your tumblarity more)

[10/01/10 11:29:22 PM] LAUREN : HAHHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

boost my tumblarity

lovely

“These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence:

the connections - sometimes trenuous, sometimes made at great cost,

but often magnificent - that happened after I was gone.

And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it.

The events that my death wrought were merely the bones of a body

that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future.

The price of what I came to see as this miraculous body had been my life."

late night Christopher Hewitt

a double video post. whatever.

i guarantee you'll like this short film.

Good Morning Rachel from Christopher Hewitt on Vimeo.

spheres of fury

wow. this blew me away.

amazing filming.

Hecq Vs Exillion - Spheres Of Fury from Tim.Chris.Film on Vimeo.

completely deadly.

yeah so term two is a go.

im here an hour early because im too much of a wimp to bus in the cold mornings so i hitch a ride with my father in the morning. sadly im here till 5 and then im going home to pass out. sleep > doing something productive

i got my first apple cinnamon tea of the morning today and it is DELICIOUS. tea is like the start and end to my day. love it.

ps. immune system: smarten up

365

yep. im doing a 365 this year. (one photo posted a day for 365 days AKA a whole year)

oh boy am i dedicated.

they will be posted on my flickr. so check those out.